Day/Card 13 of 39 … I Am Here …
Lucky Number 13! My favorite!
Growing up, I can’t say that I had the best of circumstances. I was raised by a mother who I believe wanted a “different” kind of daughter; one that was more subservient, not as strong willed, and one not so outgoing. I wasn’t ever enough for her. I was constantly told that I would not amount to much, and that I was ugly. What I knew about myself though was that I was NOT what she believed of me. I believed in something much different. I believed in ME. On more than one occasion, I had to squelch her belief about me and continuously remind myself that her vision for my life was NOT my vision. The visions that I had for myself were far greater than anything she could have ever imagined.
It’s hard to believe your life was meant for greater things when your own parent is telling you a different story. The voice that you hear in your head that gives you doubts is most times theirs. Here’s what I believe wholeheartedly: What we believe about ourselves is ultimately what manifests outwardly. I knew I was different. I could not show up as she wanted me to because that was NOT a version of me that I believed myself to be. I could only show up as the ME that I knew because any time I attempted to conform, it literally hurt My Soul.
The card, “I Am Here” dares you to show up as yourself. It challenges you to tell the truth about who YOU are, not who you think you should be, or what you believe others want you to be. To show up as anyone other than your TRUE self is an insult to your Soul and you can literally feel it down to your core! Your Soul knows when you are lying. You can’t hide your own truth from your Soul. Your Soul desires for you to always show up as your Highest and Best Self, not as a watered down, conformed version that is attempting to make everyone else happy to keep the peace at the expense of your own happiness and peace. What good is that serving yourself? And in turn, what good is that as you serve others? Be 100% YOU, no excuses, no explanations. As uncomfortable as it may be, tell the world, “I Am Here!” You owe yourself that much!
The Soulful Artist 