The Soulful Artist

Life. Art. Transcendence.

My Noah’s Steaming Hand in Missouri.

Day 25 of 28 Days Of Love!

Last week there was a cold front that dropped temperatures ridiculously, and delivered tons of snow to parts of the United States that don’t necessarily receive that much snow. Like Texas. Also, it was just C O L D all over. My son sent me a video of him sitting in his car (he lives in Missouri) and he was telling me it was something like -9 degrees! I can’t even imagine.

I’m an island girl through and through. I’m cold all the time, but a couple days ago I was whining it was too hot at 68 degrees. When did this happen. I love shorts, tank tops, and flip flop weather. Lately though I’ve found myself in that exact attire and it’s February. I laugh because I live in California and it’s not really that warm enough yet to be wearing shorts.

My love shoutout today goes to warm weather, island weather, and shorts, tank tops, and slippahs! I miss Hawaii where I’m originally from. I have to also send love to those who have been affected by this coldness and snow. Sending you all love and warmth. I pray that you’re all faring better these days and that it warms up for you!

Day 23 of 28 Days Of Love!

It’s no secret that I have a strong affinity and love for books! If you ever come to my house, the first thing that you will encounter is my bookshelves!

I love reading. It goes along with my love for imagination and my love of learning. I remember the first time I figured out that I could read! Ugh, that feeling of accomplishment and elation! I was so happy. I would read anything and everything that I could get my hands on. Any extra money I had as a child, I would spend on books! I spent countless hours in the library! I loved it that much!

My love shoutout today goes out to books and my love of reading. I spent a lot of time alone in my room as a child and books were my escape and refuge. I am so thankful for them. To this day, I can still pick up a book and easily be transported back to a place of rest and relaxation. I am thankful for the authors that write the many books that I love. And, yes, that second photo is a photo of my bookshelves.

Day 22 Of 28 Days Of Love!

I grew up Catholic, but I quit practicing Catholicism in my early 20s. I believe in God, a Higher Power (HP), The Universe, but felt no need for religion. For one, it was so forced down on me as a child that I literally felt choked by and suffocated by it. I don’t feel that a love for God/HP/The Universe should ever be forced. Secondly, I was taught that God was a judgmental God, one that would decide if you were worthy enough to enter the pearly gates of Heaven. My God is a good god and loves me regardless of my shortcomings and faults.

I am not religious, but I am spiritual. I have several spiritual practices to keep me grounded and connected to source. Like I said, I do believe in God/HP/The Universe. I very much believe that there is someone or something bigger than I am. I believe that with religion there is judgement of self, and with spirituality there is compassion for self.

My everyday spiritual practices, without fail, include meditation and breathing, and writing/journaling my “morning pages.” I’ve since included some creativity as painting or creating has been effective for me in connecting with my Spirit. I love angels and deities and call on them for assistance. I do use oracle cards and tarot, and I love crystals, plant medicine, etc. But for me, spirituality is more about my connection with myself and the spiritual practices that I mentioned is what I use to strengthen that connection.

My love shoutout today goes out to my Spiritual Team: God, The Universe, My Higher Power, My Angels, Guides, My Spirit/Soul, My Highest Beat Self. And also to my daily spiritual practices! I wouldn’t be ME without them!

Day 21 Of 28 Days Of Love!

When I first started painting, it’s understandable that my work was clumsy, messy, childish. I was learning and still getting my footing. Had I judged myself too harshly and quit painting then, I would never have evolved as a painter.

Anything that has never been is waiting for you to birth it. I used to think a lot, have preconceived ideas about what my paintings should look like and when it didn’t turn out (which it usually never did) I’d get upset and wonder who I was trying to be, what was I trying to prove?!? Until I let go and let what wanted to come forth and be birthed, be birthed.

It’s just a canvas. If I didn’t like what was on there, I could just throw more paint on it, or cover it and start over. Once I let go, once I had no expectations and let go of the outcome, the painting would flow and emerge as it was meant to. Once I freed my mind, I could see that there was beauty in what I was creating.

My love shoutout for today goes to possibility! Why possibility? Because possibilities are endless! There are infinite possibilities as to how we can or will emerge. Where potential is limited, possibilities are limitless!

Don’t ever put limits on yourself, on what you can do, or who you can be. Don’t give up on yourself before you even start. Be forgiving when you’re learning something new. Give yourself credit for getting up and showing up!

I don’t know who I would be today if I trashed all my paintings and never picked up the paintbrush after many creations that appeared to be junk. Every time I showed up at my table with new canvases and paint and started over, I got better. I’m far from Monet, VanGogh, Picasso status, but my heart is happy and my soul is free!

Here’s to infinite possibilities! Here’s to being an infinite being!

Angel of Healing!

Day 20 of 28 Days Of Love!

I have an affinity and a love for angels. For me, they represent helpers that God sends because he can’t do everything alone. At least that’s what my grandma told me.

As I got older, angels represent a huge part of my spirituality and “team” that have assisted me and guided me throughout my life. My “team,” if you’re wondering, consists of angels, guides, my highest best self (HBS), my own spirit , soul, God, and the Universe. Every morning, without fail, I ask my team what it would like for me to know/do/be/see/say/meet, and I ask for it’s guidance with my intuition and knowing. My Team has never failed me.

I love my little creations of angels that I started making a few years ago. My vision of angels aren’t huge beings. To me, they are simple and uncomplicated. Ready to help when I ask at any time.

My love shoutout for today, goes out to my own team of Spiritual Beings that have helped me, guided me, protected me without fail all the years of my life!

Ocean Vibes.

Day 19 of 28 Days of Love!

It’s no secret that I have a deep love for the ocean. I was born on an island, the island of Oahu.

There is healing in water. They say that the cure for anything is healing is salt – tears, sweat, and the sea. But there is specific research that shows that living in coastal areas leads to an improved sense of physical health and wellbeing. The by or in the ocean has been proven to induce a meditative state that makes us happier, healthier, calmer, more creative, and more capable of connection.

I have an ultimate dream to live oceanside, or by water. I try to get to the beach frequently. It’s my favorite.

So … my love shoutout for today goes out to my love for the ocean. It’s probably why I am so drawn to use the blues and teals – the colors of the ocean. Its such a beautiful place. It’s an amazing place of healing.

Day 18 Of 28 Days Of Love!

When I was little, I knew two things: I would be a nurse, and I would have 3 sons (the girl was a bonus). So crazy, huh?

They say that you never forget your first love. This is true, especially when that love is your first born. When I birthed my first son, it was the most amazing feeling and the most beautiful experience. To know that I -ME- created, grew, and housed a human in MY body. Creating something and someone that has never been before. Whoa! (Sigh.)

My Samuel was my very first born. He was by all accounts my very first love. I was barely an adult when I had him and I learned a lot with him. I often feel guilt when I think of the past and how it played out. I didn’t feel like a good Mom, and some situations were not ideal, but I did my best, and I am NOT surprised that he is a good human or is as successful as he is.

Aside from his scholastic accolades, he’s an accomplished journalist, and an accomplished WSOP circuit poker player. He’s also a good partner to his girlfriend, Kathy, and a loving fur daddy to Scout and Ranger.

I love all my children the same, I’ve just loved Sam the longest. He’s been through some crazy shit with me and he’s seen me at my worst. I’m truly proud of him and the man he has/is become/becoming.

Creating a human is an amazing thing. Being a mother is not something to be taken lightly. It’s been the most incredible journey and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

Day 17 of 28 Days Of Love!!!

Tenacious! Determined! Strong!
There are many words that I could use to describe today’s love shoutout, but IG only allows so many characters.

Today’s a special day as it’s my youngest child’s and only daughter’s birthday! 19! Time has flown by.

Ah, my Grace has been both a joy and a challenge. What child isn’t though? This child of mine has taught me so much about never giving up, belief in self, love of self and others. She’s an incredible human.

It has been an honor to be her Mom and watch her grow. Her dad and I are so proud of her.

Funny story, rather amazing story about her birthday gift. Grace has been talking about getting a French Bulldog for years now. She could tell you all about them. She has been talking about them, researching them. She has never wavered in her love for this animal. Over the last year, she has created a vision board with a French Bulldog, and over the last 6 months she has been telling everyone, “My French Bulldog named Calliope is coming!” Never wavering. She was sure. She was very specific in describing her coloring, etc. I wondered where the heck I would find this dog. My husband had been actively looking, but if you know anything about French Bulldogs, they are not cheap. My husband was even willing to travel to get one. Wouldn’t you know that my husband, as resourceful as he is, had everyone looking and after some time was able to locate and secure one. When he went to inspect it, he told me it was the exactly the same dog as was on her vision board! Same markings, etc! What?!! Grace’s manifesting power is on point!

On this day we want to honor our child. Also on this day, she became a mom – a dog mama. So, welcome to Calliope! We’re so happy to have you join our clan! Happy Birthday, Grace!!!

Day 16 of 28 Days of Love!

Go big! Do big things!

Today’s love shoutout goes to my Number 3. My Noah.

He’s out in the world, doing BIG things, doing HIS thing. I’m so proud of this one. All he’s wanted is to play ball. Baseball, that’s his dream. He’s in Missouri right now, playing for MBU in scholarship. He graduates this year so it will be fun to see where he heads off to next! (I’m hoping he takes my advice and plays international baseball. How cool would that be?!)

He’s the most quiet of all my children, the one filled with the most passion and angst. He’s an amazing soul and he always surprises me with his sense adventure, his vibrancy, his love, his passion.

Teach your children to not fear adventure or life. Teach your children to love hard and enjoy life. I taught my children to not be like me, but rather to be themselves!

Do your thing, Noah! I love you!

Day 15 of 28 Days Of Love.

Mental strength. Mindset. I love all that kind of stuff. I love learning all about it – what makes us as humans tick, how to keep going when facing challenges, why some are not able and others can withstand torture.

I’ve raised my children to be strong. To look adversity in the eye and forge forward. I was kind of a militant mom, but balanced. Think iron fist in a velvet glove. All of my children are different. I could’ve just written a post about all of them, but they all deserve their own shout out.

I’m starting with my number 2, my Nate, today because he’s headed into some really difficult and challenging training, but it’s exactly what he manifested for himself and what lights him up! I’m excited and worried – more excited though because I know what he’s capable of. I also know what he’s made of and he’s already proven himself.

So my love shoutout today, goes out to my Nathan! I am so very proud of him and all that he does! I am excited for him to tell me all about his adventures when I see him again!

To my Nathan, I salute you!